taking it in

i expected to be blown away by a hot, humid august. sticky. uncomfortable. pit stains. melting makeup.
not the case. it's been rainy, gray, and cool here. and since we all know how much i adore my motherland where rain is what we live and breathe, i like this. i've been taking in this day, staring out our windows, thinking, going for a swim, reading, and dreaming. i love when our apartment is this quiet.

i love these kind of days. i'm a romantic...that girl who has a list of all the things i want to do in life and wants everything to have a happy ending. no, i was not super productive today. but i feel good about it. i guess i'm just taking life in before i start my real job. monday is the day (even though i was supposed to start this week...love unorganized agencies).

i'm terrified. i guess this feeling always comes in life though. i don't like first days of anything. even on first days of college, i felt like i was going to throw up from nervousness the entire day. but the firsts come and go, and my stomach settles, and i think this teaching job will be a great thing. i've just got to get past the first day. and not throw up in front of the other teachers. or on them.